Except for the lead photo above, this began as an Instagram post. My swyping keyboard finger kept going as if it was a freewriting exercise.
When I scrolled up to add some words to a previous paragraph, something happened that I've never experienced in Instagram:
I RAN OUT OF SPACE/CHARACTERS.
I know that Instagram should be for captions and not full posts. I'm aware that people rarely read the words beneath the picture.
So, here's the full post, slightly modified for blog format (links instead of usernames, headings for readability, etc.) and clarity. This might be something for me to do more often: Start an Instagram post with “See more on my blog”.
(Stream of consciousness:) l still feel like crap, but that's okay. It's okay to feel uncomfortable & get sick on occasion. Our obsession with health is unhealthy when it keeps our bodies from doing what they naturally do.
I believe in living a life of ease as much as possible. I also believe that there are times when we should try to allow the discomfort to exist before grabbing relief.
It's a good exercise in, excuse the phrase, not being a wuss.
It's also helpful.
Acknowledging and leaning into the discomfort without rejecting it acknowledges that we have to navigate through the world every day. It takes some power away from the feelings, which is in itself is a relief.
Sometimes what we think is the prevention of discomfort is actually FEAR. Some discomfort does toughen us up.
Yes, seek help
NOT that we shouldn’t seek help when we need it or prevent discomfort when it can be avoided.
What I'm saying is that sometimes in our dislike for discomfort we don’t allow ourselves to deal with issues (whether a cold or an emotional issue) & heal.
There's a difference between “discomfort” and “suffering”, and it's an important distinction.
Avoiding discomfort can lead to suffering.
Instead of allowing ourselves to be sick or hurt or experience negative emotions, we go into denial or bypass.
Sometimes we have to acknowledge that life has shitty moments and then decide to do something about it, thoughtfully rather than impulsivity or by habit. I'm not sure I'm communicating this well, but if I'm not and you have questions, I'll answer.
[Note: I suspect that it's more clear in the blog version than it was going to be on Instagram.]
Back to that cold
I've been taking herbs & other immune boosters.
If I’m still sick tomorrow when I have to work THEN, I’ll medicate for relief and while at work I‘ll take precautions to not spread germs. There’s only so much I can do. It’s the time of year, and this cold is going around. I feel for people who are immune compromised.
How the germs got me
(To be honest, I’m partly including this little paragraph because I like analogies.)
I consumed foods that are known immune suppressants the day before I got that telltale sensation in my throat. My immune system was probably busy tackling that. Like The Night’s Watch, the soldiers of my immune system went to battle White Walkers (sugar — which is not a bad analogy with the “white”!) and left my body vulnerable to attacks by other invaders.
What do you think of this format?
And there you go. Is this format a good idea? My Instagram account gets way more eyes on it than my blog (though I'll be importing this into Medium), but maybe this is a way to get people to read what I say.
What are your thoughts about living with discomfort?